Wednesday, September 19, 2007
I know I seem to be posting a lot of "downer" post lately...and seriously it is not my intention...but I couldn't let today go by without honoring my big brother...he died a year ago today...suddenly...he died of a heart attack at the very young age of 52! We were all so terribly shocked when we got the call...I just COULD NOT believe my big brother was gone...never to tease me...laugh with me...argue with me...remember with me..love me in spite of myself...ever again...on this earth...the brother who had protected me from all the bullies around when growing up...the brother who taught our baby sister to dance...the same brother who used to really aggravate the "heck" out of me growing up...the brother who thought it was his responsibility to tell my dad who I could and couldn't date...you know because he knew everyone...and not everyone was up to dating HIS sister...the brother who taught our little sister how to ride her bike and always...always...made her feel like she was a princess...after all he was 11 years older than she was...so he had lots of wonderful things to teach and share with her. The brother who gave me two wonderful and sweet nephews...the two nephews that have had to suffer more than they should at such a young age! The two nephews he called sons...the two people on earth he loved with everything he had! We all miss Gary...we will always miss him... I for one...hold many memories close to my heart...as I know my sister and nephews do, too... to me Gary was my only connection left to my past before my sister came into our lives in 1965...by then he and I were ole' pros's at being kids, siblings, cohorts, and such...after all we were 11 and 8 when she was born..he was the last person in my family to have known me since the day I was born...I don't know how to explain the "strange effect" that has had on me...I really can't explain it...b/c the memories are here in my heart just like he is...but I don't have him here to reminisce with...so that makes me sad..I mean there are 2 uncles that knew of me...but not someone left in my immediate family...so I lost a connection to my past along with my brother on that sunny day last September...We all lost something very special that day...for my sister a "big" brother who was her knight in shining armor on many occasions...to my nephews the man they called...dad...and looked up to as a friend, father, confidant and "fixer" of all things bad...a dad...who could do anything they needed for him to do...for me the sometimes "bigger" than life tough ole cowboy...that has always been a part of my life!! WE ALL MISS YOU...GARY...and always will...you old cowboy...you!!
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